Sunday, October 23, 2011 12:21 AM
Seriously, I wonder why I cared so much for him.
Everyone in the family kept BEGGING him to just press on and work hard for the last 3 weeks. Yet, he still acts as if he's having a HOLIDAY. Watching youtube videos the moment he gets home, using his iTouch to do god-knows-what and always going out to "study with friends". My mum specially took leave to guide him along and he does not even appreciate it.
When I was having my O levels... (don't tell me about generation gap cos we're only 2 freaking years apart) I was on my own for O levels. I didn't touch my laptop for the last 3 weeks before O levels at all. All I had was my handphone. I was focused and studied from 9am to 10pm everyday.
Him? He wakes up at 1pm and sleeps at 1am. Probably only having about 5hours of study time. I don't see him trying to revise any notes and I'm sure he does not have all the concepts well. He has not even STARTED memorizing his SS and egeog. Plus, he's not the last minute type. He cannot absorb anything at the last minute. And here we are, 1 day left before the start of O levels and he's still watching "unnatural" on xinmsn and telling my mum that iPhone 3Gs is now free.
Like wtf? Is that the freaking priority now? He may have other plans he is thinking of but there's no harm in doing well for O levels right? At least if he changes his mind in the future at least he has a decent set of results to get him around. With fucked up results he'll probably just end up like my dad, jobless and idle.
When he was finding the website for the free iPhone 3Gs, I asked him in a stern voice, "Is this what you should be thinking now? Get off the laptop." And he replied in a whatever-bitch-just-go-away tone, "Orh." So I just turned the switch off. I've had enough of his bullshit. What's worst is that my mum even asked me in an angry tone, "What are you doing?!" Like as if I'm at fault now! FUCK.
If he's putting in all his effort in revising and doing his best, I won't even bother him if he takes breaks and browse the webs. BUT the thing is that he's putting in half the effort, having the guts to put "I don't like it when I don't know what I should be studying ):" as his facebook status. He has no study plan, in which I have told him to do long fucking time ago and now he still dare to say that?!
Here's the facebook conversation we had thereafter:
Angsty Wan Yee I don't like it when you're not studying when you should be.
16 minutes ago · Like
Ang Mao Wei Sod off
15 minutes ago · Like
Angsty Wan Yee Sure. Go ahead and fail your O levels. I don't really care anymore. I bet with you that you will regret.
12 minutes ago · Like
Ang Mao Wei And maybe I won't
12 minutes ago · Like
Angsty Wan Yee Prove it to me then. Words are nothing.
5 minutes ago · Like
Ang Mao Wei Just you wait and see
5 minutes ago · Like
Btw, "Sod off" means screw off. I don't think that's how you should talk to someone who has been caring for you. I give you advice, I buy Sushi back to encourage you... I care for you. And this is what I get?
You know what? You're on your own. Go ahead and screw up your own life. It's not the results that matter here anymore. It's your freaking attitude. With that attitude of yours, I assure you that the only place that you will ever be wanted with that awesome way of thinking is probably just the gangsters. Good luck to you with that.
Disappointment.
雀です。