oh yay! no school tomorrow! you know why? nope, not because of teacher's day! but.... because there's a power failure and we shockingly dont have to go to school because of that! man, im loving it.

sad thing is, i wont be able to get my pokemon from huiting! i have to figure out what she tells me to do by myself. T.T anyway, was rejoicing on the point that there's no school tmr in audi. i chosed the song " Christmas Party " and while playing i realised how important christmas is in my life.

Chritmas to me, means a lot of things:

1. A family reunion with cousins and all. Best part is i will get to see my happy grandmother. :) love her lots. she's the most important person in my life and i love the point that she is very very healthy. :D

2. Jesus' Birthday. Although im free thinker, i believe a lot in jesus and the lord. Maybe because im in st.nicks. It's a day to rejoice his birth and yeah, love it.

3. HIS birthday. not many of the people know who this HE is, but he was once an important person to me. although he is no longer together with me, i know my heart will always have an empty space for him to fit in at any point of time. i've tried forgetting about him but, it's almost an impossible thing to do. although it has been 5 months since our seperation, i still cant get over him. it is tough but im still trying. i was reflecting on the times we had together during the game and realised that he has been a very nice person. i know very well that he did loved me with his heart. i know it sounds disgusting but it's true. he has never made me cry during our times and that proves how good he is. although we only spent 1.5 years together, he has made the 1.5 years the best times of my life. he was my support, my locked diary. i will always remember him and i hope he remembers me too.

Memories of the past,
" Love-the secret behind it "

was surfing the net and found these...

" but a best friend is someone who there for you, won't judge you, respect you, love you, care for you, someone to relax with, to have a shoulder to cry on, to tell u the truth even when it hurts, etc... "

" a friend sticks by you... a friend tells you that you are wrong, when you're wrong. "

" some one that doesn't let you down when you need them and is always there and would treat you how you would expect to be treated your self "

" real friends will not make you cry, lead you on, humiliate you, talk behind your back. "

" One who tells you, you are wrong when its true, not the ones who agree with every thing you say "

" A true friend will not use you for her needs. It's about give and take. Many claim to be true friends but their actions show the contrary. It's the test of time, and true an handful of true time-tested friends and consider yourself rich. " -- i love this one

" That person accepts u how u are and always forgive the stupid things u do. " -- the more i think i wasnt even regarded as her friend.

" and some1 who knows theres something wrong before you have even opened your mouth to tell them. " -- she didnt even realise.

" true friend is the person who is always with u when u need and always participate in ur sorrow ,cares for u alot,and try to be with u al the time, and he is never selfish "

Better to trust a stone than a friend? i wonder...

hey people! :)

these few days has been rather interesting. sat was yu ying's birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YU YING! LOVE YOU LOTS! :)

lol it's rather belated but, yeah, part 2 of ur present is finally done!! :D u mus love me back k. haha. study hard and love ur wallet always! oh, ur bag too! ;) weekends has been rather slack, cant get myself down to work. i shall start TODAY then! yay! :D oh, decided my rules from the previous post sucked. so i got myself a new set of rules + goals! :)

1. 10 questions of math and science daily.
2. Ask teachers questions from assesment book which i dont understand.
3. Get huiting to teach me some chem stuff im still not sure about.
4. Know what i dont know.
5. Finish all the mindmaps by sep hols.
6. Do work during recess/free period/between lessons.
7. Stop gaming sooooo much!!
8. Dont listen to valarie and go back mapling. ><
9. Read 2 books before EOYs.
10. Print out my set of rules.
11. Wake up at 10am LATEST on weekends.
12. Sleep at 12am latest on weekdays, 1am on weekends.
13. After finish mindmaps, read through again and again and memorise.
14. No going out during hols unless to STUDY!
15. Fufill all the rules and goals. :)

15 sweet and nice ones! haha. kind of love them cos it's more realistic. =]

something for you: i've already apologised to you and you still dont wanna accept it. while you apologised to me and i've actually forgiven you on the day the incident happened. i hope you understand that i post for a reason. im not the sort who go around hurting people and making their lives miserable. i just wanted you to understand how i feel deep inside too. keeping things inside my heart dosent work in a friendship. although it may keep the friendship going on for awhile, it will not stay for long. you said you werent affected by the post. if you werent, you wouldnt have written that letter to hurt my feeling back. do note that whenever you hurt me, i forgave you without you apologising to me. how about you? saying sorry is so difficult for you. in life, you must learn to forgive and forget or you will never go on. although you just went " ok, fine. sorry then. ", i still accepted your apology. however, despite me saying sorry once i realised what wrong i have done, you still refuse to forgive me and continue giving me a " im never gonna forgive you " tone. you tell me to think of how you feel, fine. i though about it that's why i agreed yu ying in letting both of us have a talk through msn. i wanted to know if i have done anything wrong in the past that make you unhappy about the friendship. now that i know, i sincerely apologise to you. i swear i've never thought or wanted for us to become like before. i can't risk myself getting hurt by you after continuous times you have hurt me. i believe this is the first time im hurting you and im already saying sorry to you. you? you've hurt me numerous times and still refuse to apologise after explaining it to you so many times why im upset. i hate to make enemies. the feeling is disgusting. but since you love making enemies and love this disgusting feeling, i have nothing else to say. just wanna let you know i finally saw ur true colours.

Life is full of rainbows :)

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oh god! EOYs are coming! x( term 3 flew past so quickly. i've been kind of pleased with myself these few days. :) maybe cause i've been doing my homework? haha! anyway, today is charlene's birthday! :DDD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR CHARLENE! :)

sorry haven't pass u ur prezzie yet. it's not ready! :\ ah wells, today is a MATH MATH MATH day!!! x.x almost died doing math. calculated... did 3.5hrs of math STRAIGHT. okay, rested during recess tho. ;P but still, eeeeeek. i dun think i will get full marks anymore cos i checked ALL the questions except the one i got wrong. SHEESH! -pause- internet shut down and luckily have blogger saving my post! okay, back to my post... oh yes, i hope they will give like 2 working marks and at least 2 marks more for handing up homework on time! then it will cover up my 4 marks provided i dun have anymore marks deducted... ><

since EOYs are coming, i've made myself a set of RULES! :D

1. Gaming for only 1hr MAX.

2. Study for at least 3 hrs a day.

3. Do all my homework dilligently.

4. No more blogging till end of EOYs. (so this is my last post before i transform into a nerd)

5. Tv only 1hr MAX.

6. Study the moment there is free time.

7. Finish mindmaps for all my subjects.

8. Sleep early before EOY.

9. No more wasting time surfing the internet.

10. Attend my mum's tuition where I can earn at the same time. (she pays me for going for her tuition :) )

11. No more wasting time after school; go home straight unless huiting wants to teach me chem.

12. Download all the notes from alexteoh's web and edulearn and MUG on them.

13. Do the best I can in studying, refrain from tiring myself too much.

14. Stay at home during holidays to study and go out only to study, not to SHOP.

15. Read at least 2 books before EOYs.

16. Do at least 10 math sums, 10 science questions, 1 chinese ws (any type), read newspaper, revise humanities, revise elit notes per DAY.

17. Re-read elit books before EOY.

that's about all. may add more tmr. need to rush my history assignment now. SEEYA!

it's all about love

a decade in st.nicks.


thinking about it already makes me want to faint. but what can i do? i did my best. it's now all over.

ANYWAY! :)

yesterday - didnt go to school cos couldnt really walk. cant straighten my leg. missed chinese compo! ><'' couldnt take photo too! sorry theresa, rachael and charlene! :\ then went to skin centre at around 2. brought nai nai to gleneagles first. when we reach skin centre she alrdy finish seeing the doc. so she took a taxi home herself. nai nai pro le lor! :) had to do some blood test... they took a lot of my blood! :( about a test tube much of blood maybe?! gosh. felt uneven after that. haha ;D had urine test too :\ and and the worst --------- SCRAPING OF MY POOR SKIN. argh. first the doc wanted to take this particular FRESH spot off. then he realised another one nearby looks better. so i had 2 jabs of the what is it called? the one to make my feet numb. ;) had a stitch or 2. now i feel handicapped! my right leg with the stitch, and my left leg with terrible muscleache. :\

today - PARADE IN SCHOOL! was very nervous cos i was in the GOH. ;( i almost slipped when i was turning luh. i think i pulled my muscle then so now it's very pain again. :\ while marching my armswing sucked! they were marching so fast until i couldnt keep up. then i had to keep looking forward to check if my armswing was correct and couldnt tilt my head up properly. :\\\ whoops. and the armswings were very messy!!! Bessy was behind complaining all the while. haha. couldnt concentrate. overall, it was worst than rehersal. ;( but glad i had the chance to be in GOH! :)) almost like a once in a lifetime kind of thing. had to change into red and white after that. so mah fan. somemore had to rush to MPR to do the fancy dress thing. so happy they gave us a free 100plus. :D

celebration was kind of boring. spent time walking around instead, stopping once in awhile to sing~ after celebration went to orchard with huiting to collect something. then went back to J8 to have our lunch! huiting bought her wuzun cards. she's very happy about it. ;) lunch was kind of terrible. had it at delifrance. * rolls eyes * their service sucks can?! can ask huiting! they think we teenagers dunnid to serve us. food take so long to serve... the woman beside us can after us and left before us! >=[ and they actually forgot our drinks?! bleh. freak lah. but good thing is, they forgot so they didnt charge us! haha! saved 90c. ;) although it was a small cup, we still had it free!! wakaka. ok, i sound very auntie. :\

after lunch, huiting went home and i went to fish farm with my family to buy goldfishes! took a long time to choose and my wound started to hurt. ;((( so hurried back home to rest and yay! can finally start on my aquarist badge! ;D just have to keep updating and find out about the stuff in the fish tank and TING! ;D a new badge! hehe. haha. quite a nice day today. ;) will update again!

it's their lost, not mine.

why? why must every single one of you take what i do for granted? i've never heard a simple " thank you " from any of you before...

you know what i've heard from HER1 for the past one month? scoldings, scoldings and more scoldings. i've sacrificed my time for a dance that wasnt even fully learnt. i wasnt able to make it for the campfire but i still burnt the cd and passed the comsent form. papa drove me specially for that. in the end? no " thank you ", but a scolding. argh. you know what? i feel like scolding HER too. sadly i cant. you know why...

THEY take me for granted too. my ARLPTO. since last yr i know they dun like me alrdy. they think im a weirdo. i felt hurt alright. very... and when i found HER2, she cherished me. but abandoned me afterthat. yeah, i was deeply hurt. this year, in my ARLPTO, i finally found SOMEONE3 i can trust. sadly, she dosent trust me a single bit. she claims she does, but i cant feel it. when i get jus a tiny bit fed up, and i apologised, she goes to HER4 to complain. and now im a bad impression to her now. great job.

thankfully, when i missed footdrill during guides today, brenda and yitong told me something i didnt know. many people think i should be. and sad news is, many people heard that SHE5 liked HER3 a lot, then she told all the people with higher ranks to vote for HER3. it's not fair alright. stupid deperate girl.

you know why im saying all these? cos i really think they've gone too much. it's so POLITICAL! arghhh.... my brain is gonna burst. everyone is so competitive. no wonder there's never peace in this world.

if you wanna know who are those people, msn me. i will tell u provided i trust you...

when will peace come?

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