Monday, March 31, 2008 8:33 PM
okay i really dunno how dumb i can get. -.-!!
anyways, just to update about my weekends... has been a tiring weekend for me. worst than weekdays i must say. ): sobb. firstly, on friday CCAs stood down so no guides AGAIN. ~_~ had to stay back to prepare for fiesta anyways. after preperation went for the 4x100m run. (: it was so funny!! daphne was running super slow to delay time. passed the baton to me and i had to run super slow too! if we could run this speed for NAPFA i would jump for joy! XD hahaha! yeah yeah, i know, DREAM ON!! anyway, ended up running in the rain for the long distance run! the best part of both the runs i participated in was that 3J ran as a class! i can really feel the class spirit within us! it's just simply so different from last year! although 2W was not really a bad class but i have to admit that 3J has a strongly class spirit than 2W! =X no offense to anyone!
kay so was super tired on friday already. on sat, still had to report to school at 7.15am since i was morning shift and was in set up. munchy donuts rocks and cheer leading rocks too! so sad had to leave halfway while watching the cheerleaders cos had to help out at the stall. ): haha good thing yeongy captured everyone on her phone! :D whee! kay so sales of the donuts were pretty good. the stall beside us, i think 4W, had some funny cheer which they kept on saying non-stop. lols. overall for fiesta was great as mentioned in my previous post. (: shall not elaborate further. :P sadly didnt stay for closing ceremony since my dad wanted to go home so badly. ): but still, i enjoyed myself. :D once again, thanks and 3 cheers to SNGS and Dr. William Tan! <3
after fiesta, went home to shower and immediately went for dinner with family and ros after that. had macs for dinner! ^_^ had mcspicy~ yummy!! haha after dinner went to nainai's house and slacked there. watched the exorcist (sp?) which was not really scary after all. the other version was scarier. haha. i was disturbed for a couple of days when i watched the other version! haha since i watched a horror movie i couldnt sleep after that. so at 11pm went to yeye's grave. sadly i had a bad stomache. ): when i saw yeye's grave, i felt a sudden pinch in my heart. i suddenly realised how much i miss him. i recalled as much as possible how he looked like before he left us and how much he loved me and how much i loved touching his spikey hair. (: my fear for loved one's death deepen. i never want to experience 2 deaths of my loved ones in a year ever again. when i was P1, both my grandfathers passed away. furthermore, during fiesta, i accidentally glaced at olivia's excuse letter she was holding (which i do not want to mention it's details) and i felt even more afraid. a tear dropped and i wiped it away immediately. luckily no one saw as it was too dark.
so reached home like dunno what time since i was too tired to even look at the clock. wanted to have nice spicy beibeimian for supper but i slept in the end and when i woke up, it was all gone. ): hahahas! XD so slept slept slept and woke up at like 2pm. slacked for the rest of the day since i was still too tired to do anything. and today, had guides first aid course from 9am to 6pm. i was like ranting how irritating it is to have bio test tmr and blah blah to yeongy. haha. and when i reached home after dinner with ros and dental appointment, i realised my bio test is not tmr but next week! i JUMPED FOR JOY and announced it out to the whole world! hahaha. was really happy. xP it's still gonna be a busy week though. pray hard that i will fall sick LOL! XD i was about to say " pray hard that i will be able to get through this week in one piece " when i realised i dun mind getting sick and missing school HEHE! :P
haha kays, shall end my super long post here. (: feeling tired alrdy. shall TRY MY BEST to do some homework and i shall go meet kakashi in my dreamland. it has been a long time since i met him since these few nights i would sleep instantly the moment my head touches my pillow and i have no time to call him up first. LOL. =X haha kk bye!
say NO to homework! :D
雀です。
Sunday, March 30, 2008 5:39 PM
SNFiesta 08 was a BLAST. haha.
Although in the carnival there wasnt really anything that stood out, unlike in 2006 we had horse riding, it was still fun. (: In the whole event, the best thing was breaking the records. :D we succeeded GRACEFULLY! ^_^ we totally rocked. i guess i have to admit sngs still have the spirit within us. it isnt completely gone afterall!
3J's munchy donuts sold off quickly! so quickly that my parents didnt get any for my relatives who bought the coupons but couldnt make it. ): haha nvm. :D Mech Meteorite was freaky. although it didnt take it just standing at the coupon tearing place over there for less than 5mins i could feel saliva rain falling down on me. eeks ><
hahaha. glad i decided to run and glad i did not miss fiesta. (: if not i would have missed out on so much fun and and so much memorable stuff! :DD altho there were some idiotic people at the arcade and such it was still nice. ^_^ hahas. shall go do something now. whee!
so sad monday holiday taken up by first aid course. ):
happy 75th anniversary sngs! :D
雀です。
Sunday, March 23, 2008 1:06 AM
hehehe. okie i know it's alrdy past midnight so im kinda late but anyways...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ROS ROS MY DEAREST! <333
hahaha. hope u like the present i gave you. ;) it caused a lot of heartache to me! HAHAHA just kidding! im willing to sacrifice anything jus for you to realise your dream. ;) i promise. * muack * :D your dream = my dream. ok i sound like haku but yea. XD note im 100% a girl kay! lols XDXD wheeheehee. hopefully you can wear your waloli soon! best to save it for cosfest! (provided it dosent clash with our chinese oral) ~_~
i love youuuuu!!! more than anything else. (yes yes, u even beat kakashi in it) XD no matter what, you will always be my best best BEST BEST ICHIBAN COUSIN! :D aiyo... who ask me to love you soooo muchies. XD teehees. why r u sooooo attractive? LOL! XDXD!!! hahahaha. okie im starting to crap liao. -.-! shall end it nice and short. (:
loving you is my honour. :D
雀です。
Friday, March 21, 2008 1:12 AM
SUZUKI SUZUME.
Chapter 1.
Konoha Village.
I was there, once again, all alone. Doing the same thing, at the same time, at the same place. I grabbed the sunflower in my right hand tightly and shut my eyes to pray. Praying to the lord for guidance once again, for the correct decision for me to walk down the correct path. I stared intensely at the sunflower, and finally I started plucking out its petals. One by one, whispering beneath my breath each time I pluck one out “to do” and “not to”.
Finally, there was one petal left. The yellow petal detached itself and flew in the wind, dancing gracefully away. “Not to huh…” I mumbled to myself once again. Every time, the conclusion would be the same. Deep down inside, I want to. However, due to my shy personality, I never had the guts to. Wild thoughts would fill up my cramped mind, leading me into confusion. I always seek the help of the lord. I guess, this is the correct path I should be walking down to. “Not to.”
What I have always wanted to do is to confess my love to him. He is the one I have always liked since Academy School days. I would be sitting at a corner, stealing glances at him during lessons. Also, what fate we have together. We actually ended up in the same team. This team of mine, I can say, is very complicated. It consists of me (Suzume), him (…Kakashi), and… another him (Jeison). This three-men team has a love triangle. Obviously, I like Kakashi, and Jeison… He is one annoying guy who confesses his love to me on every mission. I always try not to show that I love Kakashi during any missions or exams. I would compress my feelings. Funny thing is, we would end up having childish quarrels and Jeison would be the one budging in, trying to “protect” me from Kakashi. The three of us are already Jounins. After such a long time, I have not expressed my love to him before. Up till now, I still do not dare to. Neither of us has been in a relationship before. Jeison is busy courting me and I am too busy plucking flower petals whether or not to confess my love. Kakashi on the other hand, is too busy reading Jiraiya’s famous books to even notice any girls around him. Well, that cannot be helped.
I threw the stalk into the flowing river and followed it till it was out of sight. I let out a deep sigh and lay down on the tender grass, looking up at the sky and admiring the puffy clouds maneuvering through the baby blue sky. Just then, I heard footsteps. I turned to my right and my heart skipped a beat. I recognized him immediately by just looking at his ninja shoes. He’s shoe size, and everything else, is already imprinted in my mind.
“Here again? From the look of your face it must be ‘not to’ again huh?” Kakashi said in his low smooth voice as he lay down beside me. My heart started pounding like a thousand horses running past. I tried my best not to blush and nodded. “Mmhmm…” “Well, we better get going. We still have a big mission to do tomorrow. Let’s go!” Kakashi gave his sweetest smile as he said that. He grabbed my hand and pulled me up gently. My heart pounded even faster, now like a thousand elephants racing past. We walked side by side, past the river, past the trees, past the shops and past the houses. The sunrays shined right onto our faces, spreading warmth all over my body. We admired the setting sun together and time seemed to pass so quickly. Soon enough, I was already at my doorstep. I bided goodbye reluctantly and I just could not keep my eyes off him. Only when he was out of sight, I was then happy enough to enter my house.
I plunged onto my sofa and stared at the ceiling. “So it has been fifteen years…” I said my thoughts out loud. Fifteen years since we have been in the same team. I shut my eyes tightly and clutched my fists. Determination arose in me and finally, I have made the biggest and final decision. Whatever that stands in my way, whatever opinions others give me, I will only listen to myself. With this, my decision is made clear: “To do.”
I opened my eyes with determination and stood up. I smiled with confidence and set my goal: I am going to do this in our next mission. I got ready for tomorrow’s mission and checked again and again. I cannot screw up this time. Just not this time! When I was confident enough that everything was packed nicely, I then turned in early with a peaceful mind. I turned the switch off and lay down on my bed. I stared at the ceiling again and nervousness crept up in me. I shut my eyes and forced myself to sleep. Thoughts of him flashed through my mind. I distracted myself with lame things and took sleeping pills. I had to sleep! Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
(To be continued)
雀です。
Tuesday, March 18, 2008 4:20 PM
WOOSH! <33333 XDXD kiakkkkk~~~ the quiz was sorta confusing. so there was this question where i didnt know which one to choose. so first i choose SWEET. then i got IRUKA. -.- then i chose COOL. then i got SASUKE. ~_~! then finally i chose the one that i wanted at 1st.... "To be so hot over you. Can't get his hands over you" hahahaha!!! and i got KAKASHI!!! :DDDDD lols~ i jus KNEW it would be that. i just wonder why i didnt choose in at 1st? o.o?? lols. heck it. i just love love love love kakashi ne~ ^_^v hahahahhaha!!
jyana~
雀です。
Monday, March 17, 2008 10:28 PM
ARGH!! I HATE CARELESS MISTAKES.
zzz. when i reached home after math test i realised i already have a careless mistake which would cost me one whole question wrong. dammit. -.- nehnehpok la. RAWR. heck it. what's done is already done. i shall NOT repeat the same mistake again. SOB!!
anyways, i've been thinking a lot of kakashi these few days HAHA! kiak~ im always wondering when i would ever find my kakashi. lols. XD daydreaming hahahahhaa. when im bored i'll always think of small little sweet love scenes with me and kakashi. whee!! it's so SWEET at most times. of cos, there are times that are bitter. nothing can be 100% sweet right? (: must be realistic LOLS! XDXD for example...
- I ran into Kakashi's open arms, hugged him tightly, never wanting to let him go. A tear dropped, then another. He stroked my hair gently, one time, two times, and more. He then whispered softly into my ears, " I'm here for you. "
- We lied down side my side on the soft green grass, which seemed blue in the night. Kakashi held my hand and hummed a sweet tune under the bright round moon. Together, we gazed the stars and mesmerized all the time we had together. It was pure happiness.
- " I DID IT!!! " Kakashi exclaimed in delight. He hugged me and spun me around. Just then, he lost grib of me and I fell straight for the floor. " Ouch! " I too, exclaimed. Kakashi's eyes opened up and gave a sheepish smile. He squat down, put his hand behind his head and asked, " Daijoubu? Heheh. " He always does this.
Whoosh! hahahahha. stupid right? too much time ba. KIAK!!! XDXD lalala. since i have so much time i shall just be good and do my homework! then kakashi will reward me!! <333 yay!! ^_^ so i better get going now.
* POOF! *
there i go, holding his hand and feeling his warmth.
雀です。
Saturday, March 15, 2008 4:04 PM
finally, it's the end of 2 tiring weeks of dance prac.
practice started at 7am today. great improvement. (: "illegally" used the bishan cc dance studio. haha! =X hehe. okay anyway 9am the competition started. i was freaking out and getting super nervous. we were the 3rd guides school to perform... so yea, watched other schools perform and i was getting even more freaked out each minute.
then, it was finally our turn. almost all of us forgot to do the pose at the starting! argh, but anyways, i forgot some steps!! omg. sucks. luckily not very obvious. >< hehe. if not i think i will just go and bang the wall. hahahaha. love our last pose where the umbrellas were shown to the audiences. "S" "N" "G" "G". and when we turned and posed. it was really cool. ^_^
my heart was racing like crazy when they were about the release the results. when it finally came, my heart sank. SKSS 3rd and 2nd when their dance is not even cultural. -.- really! although i have to admit that their dance is nice, they do not have any chinese inside! it's all INDIAN. zzz. but the champion really deserved it. (: good job to that school! (sry i forgot which sch! =X) hais. nvm. it's over already. i know everyone did their best. :D
to 1st and 2nd coy dance group:
all of us has done our best. to me, we are the best! although we did not win anything, but deep in my heart, we are all champions. CHEERS FOR SNGG! ^_^ love all of you~!!
haha okays. anyways. i think i saw mas selamat. wth. -.-! i mean i was on the MRT and i saw this guy... his face looked like mas selamat... and and he's really short. (although he was sitting down i can see that he IS short) AND! HE HAD A WALKING STICK. don't you think it's all to coincidental? i was TOTALLY freaked out. he was sleeping at that time so i didnt dare to conclude anything. argh! when i got out of the MRT i kept looking at the posters with mas selamat's face. i was and am STILL very disturbed. what if it's really him?! ARGH!!! T.T dammit. ~_~
OKAY ENOUGH. :P last night i was looking at kakashi's pic. it was taken at night and he was holding his book and smiling. and i thought of a very sweet scene:
Kakashi entered the bedroom and smiled his cheeky smile, with his favourite book on his left hand. his eyelids shaped into a curve. i just love the way he smiled. just then, he bent down to my height and i started into his eye. " bedtime story time. " he said with his hot voice, still smiling. i looked on the hard cold floor and touched my lips. " umm, i need to do my english homework first. help me with it okies? " i mumbled shyly. Kakashi opened his eye and looked right into my sparkling eyes. " alright, love. " he said with his hottest voice again, kissed my forehead gently, and smiling his sweetest smile.
ISNT THAT SO FREAKING ROMANTIC?! AWW MAN!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
im so in love.
雀です。
Thursday, March 13, 2008 6:34 PM
maybe next time i should just not care about anything right? everything would be so well done without my effort.
with bimbos bitching around and people not appreciating at all, i guess i should just vanish from this world. oh, but wait. i dont think it's worth it to vanish just because of them. haha! i should just let them do everything right? yea~ it would make my life soooo much better! brushing off my ideas just like that aint helping ya know. dont want me to help, tell me. i could jolly well leave the team. i bet you guys will do better without me right? yea must be, since u're so confident about urself. -.-''
okay enough of complaining. lols. kiak~ i've concluded that J8 is the last shopping place i would ever go. $13.90 for leggings. =.= i didnt know it was so ex. thot it was around this price for all the other places so i just bought it. argh. stupid me. should've called ros first. ): sorry guys. i promise i will get super cheap skirts for u guys kays? (: muackies~ LOL. XD ok overboard le. ><'' oh yea, thanks huiting and nerice for helping me search for the leggings!! :D arigatou ne~ ^_^ haha ok. im gonna chiong homework today. ~_~! sian diao. lols. ok after dinner that is! hehe~ kkays jyana!
u nehnehpoks. :P
雀です。
Tuesday, March 11, 2008 11:04 PM
hahahhaha. i was thinking of kakashi when i decided to blog about.... my dream guy. :P
yea it's sorta like a random topic but since im feeling super sian, no harm blogging abt it right? XD so yeah... there's a reason why i love kakashi so much right. in short, i like people who have the personality of kakashi. (other than the part where he read porn books) hehe. now, i shall describe what exactly is his personality.
1. i like someone who is... knowledgable. one who is up-to-date and well informed.
2. i like someone who is... caring and is always there for me... no matter what.
3. i like someone who is... funny but knows when to be serious.
4. i like someone who is... romantic to an extent... haha, the reason why he reads jiraiya's books.
5. i like someone who is... one that has his own principles. the way he has his own thinking YET willing to listen to other's comments.
6. i like someone who is... accepting to changes and deals with him perfectly.
7. i like someone who is... loving. one that can give me true warmth.
8. i like someone who is... protective. so that he can protect me when im in danger... etc.
9. i like someone who is... an animal-lover. just like how kakashi loves is nin-dogs.
10. i like someone who is... particular about unity and love. (his teamwork thingy)
11. i like someone who is... cool. like his sharingan and chidori. (:
12. i like someone who is... professional at whatever he does.
13. i like someone who is... clear about what he does.
14. i like someone who is... smart and knows how to react to different situations.
15. i like someone who is... a japanese lover. LOL. XD
16. i like someone who is... taller than me and not too fat, not too skinny. =X
17. i like someone who is... dilligent and does what he is told, but at the same time has his own opinions.
18. i like someone who is... one that can make my heart go wild! :D
19. i like someone who is... CUTE! like the way kakashi think of excuses when he's late.
20. i like someone who is... one with passion and love. like how he misses his teamates.
YEP! that's the 20 points. ^_^ oh man, how i wish there would be someone with that kind of personality. lols. im like so freaking choosy! XD but i cant help it ne! it's just... in my heart. sometimes my heart would ache when i think of how impossible it is for me and kakashi to be together. LOL. XD im dreaming again. =X rawr~ but i know one day... i can find my kakashi. (: muack! :P
daisuki. love ya.
雀です。
Thursday, March 06, 2008 11:38 PM
生活随笔（二）
爱，是一种非笔墨所能形容的感情。爱，是每一个生物可以感觉到的感觉。对我来说，我觉得爱是每一个人需要的感受。没有爱，活得有什么意义呢？说说男女之间的爱情吧。我觉得如果真正爱一个人的话，不管要放下任何东西，都无所谓。只要对方开心就好。我这年龄的女生想得最多就是爱情了。坦白说，我也不例外。
爱常常会带来麻烦，带来困扰。说实话，我有被男生追过。当那位男生告诉我他喜欢我的时候，我吓了一条，不知所做。我想了很久，才决定跟他坦白。我告诉她我只把他看成朋友，我还没到准备谈恋爱的年龄。简单来说，我拒绝了他。我当时觉得很难过，不知道我是否作了适当的决定。那位男生听了就很伤心，非常看不开。我不断地为他，告诉他我们还可以做最好的朋友。可是，不管我说什么，不管我多安慰他，他还是选择逃避现实。他就开始避开我，我敢跟我说话。我不知道该怎么做才好，我对他一点感情都没有，但是我也不要失去一位很好的朋友。我该怎么办？嗨，我已经想不出办法了。我只希望有一天他会想得开，把心从新打开起来。
爱虽然带来很多麻烦和困扰，但我不会因为有这些困扰而忽略生活里的其他东西。因为世界不知有你和他，也有一他人，我们的家人，朋友，亲戚。在人生中，我们一定要做确当的选择，不要因为做了错的选择而后悔一辈子。
when trouble comes in your way... overcome it.
雀です。