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Sunday, April 27, 2008 9:25 PM

it turned out better than i thought.

i went, dreading like mad, hoping that i would get sick instantly. but now, im so glad that i went. (: camp was fun. it would have been better without the insects though. =\ i cried 2 times during camp, on both nights. on the first night, i got so freakingly frightened of the insects that i cried. -.- i know, stupid right. haha but i cant help it. i was already on the verge of crying and an insect HAD to land on the person sitting in front of me. and BANG! there goes my tears~ >< note: the insects were BIG. the size of half your index finger. go look. plus, there was this big beetle like insect which was the size of an index finger. ~_~!!!

the second night that i cried was when we were having like a "reflection" session within our group. i cried like crazy. hahaha. first time i cried so hard in front of my friends. =X seriously, i think 3J is awesome. :D we are bonded so closely through this camp! i saw the other GOOD side of other people which i had a wrong impression of. im sorry to those that i had a wrong impression. i love all of you 3J 08'! ^_^

about the camp... the two most tiring activities were monster inc. and rafting. monster inc. really sucked cos we had to climb up the steepest slope i've ever seen in a weird way. hahaha. many of us had our hands injured. there was one smart class which used their shoes to protect their hands! * clap clap * water rafting was SUPER tiring as well. we had to paddle with our floats to the float in the middle of the swimming area which contained salt. we had to scoop ONE spoon of the salt and paddle back and keep going and get as much salt as possible. gahhh.... the float keep being pushed further and further and i was the third group so by the time it reached my group, it's already pushed quite far out. there was one part where we werent moving at all! gosh. by the end of it i was like super tired and didnt even have the energy to unlock my buckle. =S paiseh 3J if we pulled you guys down! ):

bathing session is always very funny. the queue would always be very long and people outside would be like screaming " ka kin la! ", " fai di la! ", " kuai dian la! ", " HURRY UP LA! ". (sorry if spelt wrongly) hahaha. and the people inside would be like " YAH LA YAH LA. COMING OUT LE LA! " hoo hoo! im so glad that im in guides. (: trained us to shower fast! i washed my hair first so that i would take super fast to shower! :D let me tell you how guide's training pulled off. there were 5 showering cubicles. 4 were almost done. like drying themselves, blah blah. and one came out, so i went in. and guess what. i came out first. -.- st. nicks ladies ah... train urselves to shower faster next time hor! haha. XD

campfire was great. but they cheated our feelings! THEY LEFT 3J OUT! omg, our hearts shattered and everyone shouted together " WA LAO!!!!!! " and i almost cried again. -.- but of cos, i held it back. our campfire item was super funny hahaha. cos when we squat down everyone was like falling over cos the people behind us would push our butts with their knees and it was like a domino effect. damn funny. and when our campfire item was over we screamed like mad while the other classes just sat their staring at us. hohoho!

sleeping time was hilarious. first night, it was super quiet after lights out. then suddenly a laughing gas was let out and it was so contagious. we would be like laughing in a minute, next minute quiet... then it all starts all over again. hahaha. second night was different. after lights out, everyone was still talking. it was so noisy that i couldnt sleep. but i was so tired in the end that i dozed off even though it was very noisy. :P

oh! i LOVE the night trail. we were supposed to find sin hong, which was supposedly kidnapped. our group knew sin hong was afraid of all these stuff so we were like shouting her name all the way. like " SIN HONG~~~ WHERE ARE YOU?!?! WAIT FOR US!!! HANG IN THERE!!! WE ARE COMING~ OI!!! REPLY US!!! SIN HONG!!!!!!! " hahhaa. yea, something liddat. XD

OUR INSTRUCTORS ARE LOVE! :D cherrie and froggie were great! froggie was so gay that my goosepimples all stood up when he did all his gay actions hahaha. but he's awesome! he can climb the landpost! cool luh! cherrie was kawaii ne! she's like small sized and when she goes very high she looks damn cute! hahaha. like giving all the energy she has! hohoho! i really hope our class can have a gathering with them soon. (: it would be so nice! ^_^

haha i guess i've said a lot. once again, love ya 3J! we shall be the best class no matter what. ;) MUACKS!!

well, i guess that's it!

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Wednesday, April 23, 2008 9:46 PM

TODAY IM GONNA SLEEP SUPER EARLY! :D

cos i wanna sleep as much i as can so that i wont suffer that much during camp. gahh, im so dreading it. i rather go for GUIDES CAMP! (: i mean, st. john island is haunted... ): i dun wanna see anything that im not supposed to see. PLUS! the shower cubicle dosent have a door! it only has curtains! WHY CANT THEY JUST FUCKING BUILD DOORS WHEN THEY BUILD THE TOILET?!?! sickos. i bet the female designers wanted to compare... =\

we get 5mins to shower... i think i will just wash my hair in the sink like guides camp. ~_~ dun wanna rush and everything. and i think i would be too afraid to stay in the shower for too long. =X and im scared of the dorms. whether said to be haunted or not. i dun wanna sleep on the floor, for the fear of looking under the bed and seeing something... i dun wanna sleep on the bed, for the fear of something underneath disturbing me. T.T and i had no time to leminate(sp?) my kakashi pic! T_T!!! i shall just print, cover it with plastic cover and bring it. i dun wanna bring my kakashi keychain in case i loose it. KAKASHI I WILL MISS YOU NE! )): be there, please. protect me!! SOB.

i just wanna get this over with. i think i wont shit for all the days. i dun wanna stay in the cubicle for too long... * gulp * oh lord, please protect us! D: me dun wanna die yet. i still have a dream to fufil. I RATHER HAVE LESSONS OR E-LEARNING!!! gosh. whats wrong with the school?! they should bring us to places like sentosa instead. (: i bet i would LOVE it. hahaha. i keep having this feeling something bad would happen... and im like forcefully compressing this feeling... like im gonna die like that. GAHH CHOY!!! cannot die cannot dieeeeee!! sheesh. pray for me man.

夢...

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Tuesday, April 22, 2008 6:42 PM

have you every thought of the consequences of each and every act of yours? 100s of animals die because of YOU. can you imagine your parents sending you to a shelter, and over there, you wait for your death. people CHOOSE when you die. STOP this insanity. YOU can do YOUR part.

the pain people go through FOR YOU.

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Monday, April 21, 2008 8:59 PM

actually, i found out this life of mine is kinda interesting after all! :D

i mean, it's simple. 简单就是幸福. (: yep! although it might be boring at times, at least im not bored to DEATH. XD with the help of naruto, my life is obviously much more interesting. fantasizing makes you dream, which is good from time to time. im not sure if i've said this before lols. cos this is simply what i believe.

well, i dont have much time to blog now. so here's the list of things i have to do:

SS graded
Revise chem
Guides logbook
Math homework

hmm, it's not really A LOT but i dun really feel like sleeping tonight. i've not successfully stayed up for the whole night before so i guess i would try it again tonight! :D hopefully i would be able to stay awake for the whole night! i shall go do my work now~ seeyas! ^_^

you're so close, yet so far

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Friday, April 18, 2008 8:51 PM

what is right? what is wrong?

TO ME, i think there isnt anything that is 100% correct or 100% wrong. everyone has different points of views. who knows? maybe you might be thinking, at this moment, that what im blogging about is simply crap.

basically, i dont really care what you are thinking. cos this is MY life, i lead it MYSELF. who are you to tell me what is 100% wrong and something i 100% SHOULD NOT DO? TO ME, i also have completely NO RIGHTS to control your life either. so dont even think about doing anything to me. you already have your own life. why are u so greedy? haha.

note that im NOT, NOT NOT!!!!!! pointing my fingers to anyone. people, you do what u think is right, i do what i think is right. as long as i love what i am doing and isnt going against my conscience, IT'S FUCKING RIGHT TO ME. you are FREE to voice out YOUR opinions to ME. i dont mind listening, seriously. but listen to mine as well alright? or else it would be unfair you know. ): lets all be fair. haha, fair me. * pukes *

im sorry if i've insulted anyone with this blogpost in a way or another. unless you are guilty of it you shouldnt anyway. ~_~ haha. so let me repeat this ONE MORE TIME.

PEOPLE ALL HAVE DIFFERENT OPINIONS. I HAVE MINE, YOU HAVE YOURS. (:

acting retarded?

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Wednesday, April 16, 2008 8:53 PM

WHOOOOOOOOO!!! :D!!!

i was walking to the forum to go home and walked past the guide board... then, i checked friday's schedule... and saw something new! browsed through the pages... " hmm, another international camp! " saw a funny word and was thinking " where in the world is this?! " i read on....

JAPAN!!!

WHEE!! ^_^ i was like :O!!! and i immediately looked for the pen and filled up my name! i was the first one to sign up! :P hahaha. i SOOOO wanna go!! please please PLEASE let me pass the interview!! im... DESPERATE. lols. sounds wrong but yeah. =X after BP im gonna chiong my jappp!!! (: praying hard!

as for BP, we are gonna chiong chiong chiong! we are sooo behind time! no more time to sit in guide house library and think of commercials already! people!! BUCK UP, C'MON WE CAN DO IT!! GANBATTE!!! :D

please

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Monday, April 14, 2008 4:24 PM

okay im seriously gonna die today.

1. study egeog
2. study BP
3. buy cake
4. guides logbook
5. collect wood
6. Math homework (oweing a lot =X)
7. bio graded assignment
8. english compre
9. many other stuff

so yeah, i dont plan to sleep tonight. :D hehe. yeah then hopefully i will fall sick and not go to school! i will still go for BP and pioneer though. (: haha such a great plan. but sad thing is, my immune system is very strong. serious! it's been a long time i've fallen sick. even after cycling in the rain and not drying myself immediately and only showering when i get home which is like 3 hours later dosent make me sick! gahh... ): i wanna be sickkkkk. haha but i dun wanna die! ~_~!! i wanna live, and realise my dream. ^_^ oh yeah, i think i found my motivation to study. (note: there is no " hard ")

to become a vet, for animals, not for me.
i forgot the other reason, all i can rmb that it's a very lame reason haha. XD

Mezashita no wa aoi ano sora...

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12:10 AM

i just did some thinking...

why do i love him in the first place? i know very well he isnt person i met 2 years ago. i know SUPER well he will never love me back ever again. so why do i keep wanting his love? the answer is because im just bored and have nothing else to think about. stupid.

ros told me something that really made sense. guys over the net are all fake. his "love" towards me wasnt even real. he was cheating me, hurting me. so why should i love such a guy?! im really dumb to do so!

get out of my life you bastard. stop ripping my heart apart. STOP. dammit. go away... come to me only if u wanna love me. NEVER come to me if u're being a fucked up bastard.

argh.

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Thursday, April 10, 2008 8:57 PM

I JUST HATE EMOING.

the feeling sucks. plus, it's so hard to remove the damn feeling. emoing is badddddd. ): i really dislike guys... well, as for now that is. haha. trella knows how i feel very well. :D hehe.

anyway! tmr is my oral test! ~_~ why do i sound so excited? lols. i bet i wont be able to express the things i wanna say well. =\ rahh im just gonna do my best. (: cos i know kakashi would be there for me, right in my heart, cheering me on. (and giving me hints LOL!) ok i have loads of things to do now. math hw, rubbish homework, guides... etcetc. =S kay shall go now~ seeyas.

you're getting irritating all over again.

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Tuesday, April 08, 2008 10:34 PM

i shall dedicate another post for another person. to HIM.

you told me to forget, to stop thinking. i tried, oh how much i tried. but still, i failed to forget, to stop thinking. your every action, your every word you say... it's all imprinted in my mind. i've never been so in love before. you casted your spell on me. i got head over toes about you. unfortunately an evil witch bewitched my mind. i neglected you, i casted you aside. finally, we went seperate ways.

do you know how much tears i've shed for you? how much heartache i've experienced because of you? during that 1.5 years, it was as if i was in heaven. and now, during the one year from our seperation, it has been hell. being crazy about kakashi drives my attention away from you for awhile. but why? why must you have that in your nick? all my dreams, all my hopes, are all shattered. i guess it's already impossible between us. you heart no longer belongs to me. i no longer even have a tiny space in your heart. i am now a nobody. a stranger, a passerby, someone on your MSN contact list. some bitch who has fake hopes all the time on your handphone contact list.

is it really over? how much i yearn for those 3 words from you again. i want to hear it one more time. just one more time, from you. is that a lot to ask for? how much i want to hold your hand, shower you with love and at the same time you shower me back with yours. how much i want to call you " dear " again. why must things end up this way? it has been so long already. i keep telling myself i want to find my kakashi. and i end up thinking that you are my kakashi.

have i really been erased from your mind? cos erasing you from my mind is impossible. you are the only one who has been able to make me smile by just talking to you, by just seeing you. can i say that first love is hard to forget? is it true? i find it IMPOSSIBLE, not hard. people say forgetting a previous relationship is to get into another. the point is, i cant even get into another! i cant bring myself to love another guy. you are the only one, the only one who has a big space reserved in my heart. please fill that space up again, let me feel your warmth.

you say " your absence makes my heart go wild ". i know very much im not your " your ". cos im ALWAYS online. -.- but you know what? YOUR absence makes my heart go wild. have you forgotten our love? the love we once shared? why? WHY ARE YOU BEING SO HEARTLESS?! i feel like crying, but i have no shoulder to lean on. would you lend me yours? i would be over the moon if you are willing to.

i know it was my fault, to iniciate the break and want us to be together again. i know im being selfish. but i cant help it. love can neither be forced nor controlled...

maybe, MAYBE... maybe one day, we might share moments together again, share our thoughts... care for each other... love each other... and i would run home everyday after school, just to talk to you. just like before... just like before.

i love you.

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8:34 PM

i shall dedicate this post to my dear dear Trella. (:

hey gal, i know things arent going well for you in your life. but hey, look, at least you still have a life, you are given an education, given food, given sercurity, given money, given a family, given friends. :D i know you dislike your parents. but they were the ones who brought you to this world. if you're thinking " but this world sucks ", then think about this: when were the times you had pure joy? when were the times you laughed and smiled?

think of those times and think of what caused them. are those sucky as well? i know i cant change your point of view at things. however, i dont want you to live in the darkness you are in now. anyway, why do i so fucking care about you? i can only give you one reason: because you are my friend. i have to admit, these few days i've not really been talking to you. reason being is not because you are being such a freak complaining about your sucky life BUT is becuase i was hoping you would think of WHY and think about it.

everyone thinks they are right. i do think this way too. i think what im blogging now is right. you might think it's wrong, who knows? but get things right, i just wanna care about you. although not everything can be solved, at least avoid being a problem. instead of hating your parents, why not bring joy to them? perhaps they would then realise what a joy it is to have you in their lives and stop their constant nagging? nothing is impossible. just try it out.

find your light once again, find the door which shut you in the room of darkness you are currently in. open the door and walk out of the darkness. seek happiness, joy and love.

i love you trella (:

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Sunday, April 06, 2008 6:07 PM

whee i finally have time to blog about friday's gangshow @ ACS(I)! :D

friday was weird haha. between me and brenda! both of us suddenly had so much fate! XD hahaha. first, during tentage lecture both of us suddenly had the urge to shit! =X hahaha! so yea, went toilet together do earn big bucks. (: hehe.

then during dinner time we bought the same drink! haha! and at the forum waiting for the bus we had our hair tied at the same time! and and we wet our guide u with the water droplets on our bottle drinks at the same time! LOL! wad a coincidence right! XDXD!!! hahaha.

anyways, about the gangshow, the passageway which led us to the airconditioned hall rocks. the theme this year was " Ac Scary show ". so we decided to scream throughout the whole passageway no matter if it's scary or not. haha! then there was one part where a guy suddenly pop out from our left side to scare us and we bumped into all the chairs! and i think i sprained my foot then. ): luckily it was only a slight sprain. :D

haha their performance was okay. i dun really get the storyline but their dancing part was nice! :D so nice luh! (: hahaha. also, sngs got the most awards! ^_^ whee!!! huiting was such a great campfire IC! good job yeong! we all love you!! <33

next day supposed to have NDP. but my foot was hurting and i was in no condition to march so i gave it a miss. but now my foot suddenly recovered and it dosent hurt anymore. oO weird foot. haha! gotta compile BP stuff later and finish up all my homework. then i can use my monday to study bio! :D

oh yeah, NARUTO EPISODE 53 & 54 WAS GREAT!!! ^_^!!!! cos kakashi is finally back in action! haha not really " action " but on screen since he's still lying in bed. ): get well soon darling! also... THE NEW OPENING AND ENDING ROCKS!!! :DDDDD it's like so damn nice. it's so nice to the extent that altho kakashi is not in the opening NOR ending, i still love it! so you should know how nice it is now. ;) i recommend everyone out there reading this if you dont watch naruto, GO WATCH IT. it's so inspiring! serious! :D hahaha. okies i better get on with work. i dun wanna disappoint kakashi again. ): so... jyana!

finally some rest (:

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Thursday, April 03, 2008 10:24 PM

RAWR.

THE.STUPID.CAREER.QUIZ.IS.100%.RUBBISH!!!

guess what! i did the damn quiz and they said i can be a chemist! LOL?! i dun even understand chem now how can i be a chemist! simply crapping! and i got a whole list of useless jobs and just not vet! oh wow, my ambition which i have been having since i was K1/K2 is not true? i cant do it? and you want me to rather choose something i haven TOTALLY no interest in and not understanding it at all?

ISNT THIS PROVE THAT ITS CRAP?! F***ING RUBBISH LUH. DUN COME AND BREAK MY HEART LIDDAT. F*** OFF. ZAKENNAI KUDASAI!!!!!!! RAWR!!!

SUZUME IS OFFICIALLY PISSED. AS YOU CAN OBVIOUSLY SEE, UNLESS U'RE BLIND.

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6:49 PM

~~1. First Aid Course~~
2. Pioneer Badge Test
3. BP Quest
4. NDP
5. Backdrop
6. Tests (never ending)
7. Babysitting of hamsters
8. Homework (never ending)
9. Assignments (currently egeog)
10. Guides Logbook (currently accident prevention)

yay! :D First Aid Course is finally over! ^_^ best thing is, everyone passed! (i think) hahaha. whees so here comes my first aid badge! <33>woots! finally no more staying back everyday after school! ^_^ i seriously need to catch up on my sleep. hahaha! i think i did today though. =X during lessons i was like listening and sleeping at the same time. :P okay i think i mainly slept la. lols. XD

there's guides campfire tmr at ACS(I)! full u. summore next day have NDP then need to wear full u again. omg!! yucks~ so stinky!! ): nanana~ nerice aw u better go for campfire!! rawr!! there's Amath, Emath AND Elit test tmr. ~_~!!! the school seriously wants to murder me... -.-'' and guess what! I JUST REALISED I LEFT MY MND BOOK IN SCHOOL. oh wow im a genius. =.=... so i guess i shall revise math. tmr morning i will read through MND once. :D i MUST pass my amath test!! i dun care~~ im gonna chiong today. gonna finish all my amath homework and practise like crazy. :P hahaha!

okie gonna eat dinner now~ jiayou people! ^_^ we can all do it together with hardwork! GANBATTE!!

im sorry i've not visited you whole-heartedly for so long now.

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Tuesday, April 01, 2008 10:47 PM

one big thing over, many more to come.

fiesta is finally over, next is guides.

im really gonna be busy this term. i kinda " like " being busy cos it makes me cherish every minute more. :D this way, i will be able to do my homework! when i just have too much time, i would just idle around thinking there would be time and in the end i would end up doing nothing. haha!

this week im completely booked! till thursday, i will have first aid course after school till about 6-630pm. today, due to my busy weekends which resulted in me being so exhausted for the first time in my life, i slept for the first time during math lesson! okay not really the first but my first didnt really count as i had a really bad tummyache then. haha. XD and daphne kept teasing me " sleepyhead ". rawrr!! hahaha. im having a slight sorethroat now and i think im gonna be sick real soon. :P

on friday, i have guides session. and most likely there would be campfire unless it's delayed. assuming there would be campfire, i would reach home like about 10plus maybe? =\ on sat, i have the NDP thingy at 8.30am - 11am. =S after that would be joining ros for lunch and study time together! :D we would be practising chinese oral at the library. haha a bit inappropriate but who cares~ =X after we are satisfied we would go play DDR to reward ourselves! ^_^ whee!! hahaha so my sat would be gone again.

since i have that NDP thing which ends at 11am which clashes with my tuition which starts at 11am, i would have to change my tuition timing to sun. so sunday would be tuition and chionging of homework and compiling of BP notes. busy busy! and furthermore on sun im also gonna collect the hammies im gonna babysit for 2 weeks! adds on to my workload! haha good thing i will earn about $20 out of it. ;) i dare not ask for too much since it's my interest and it's not money i want. :D hehe. cant wait for the hammies to come! ^_^ lalala!! lols. okies to sum things up i shall let you see what's going on in my life now which makes me so busy:

1. First Aid Course
2. Pioneer Badge Test
3. BP Quest
4. NDP
5. Backdrop (coming soon)
6. Tests (never ending)
7. Babysitting of hamsters
8. Homework (never ending)
9. Assignments (currently egeog)
10. Guides Logbook (currently accident prevention)

yep! so mainly these " few " stuff. haha. XD im finally feeling pressured after so long. i bet im gonan be a guai kia again soon. haha. all these might either lead to guai kia-ness or pai kia-ness. =S ecks! >< haha okay i shall go be a guai kia now! :DD ganbatte, minna! ^_^

my simple busy life

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