Sunday, July 25, 2010 3:10 PM
Here's a post dedicated to Jessica. Dunno if she'll see it but ah wells.
I dare not say I totally understand how you feel. However, I do understand how it feels to yearn something so much and yet, what you get back is just disappointment. For my 10 years in SNGS, I've never gotten the role of Monitor, let alone a Prefect. Even in CCA, I never had a leadership role. I wanted to get into NUSHS so badly that I appealed like an idiot when I got rejected. I wanted to get into DPA for TP so badly that when I slowly read forum posts on people getting in, I felt dizzy. I wanted to get TP scholarship that even weeks after people got their emails, I was still hoping.
That said, I'm slowly trying to take life easy. Happy things happened to me too! I realised when I don't yearn for something so badly, I actually get them. For example, my CCA. I just went for the interview, not expecting much. Plus, everyone else who was interviewing along with me were aiming for posts like president and stuff. I was the only one who said things like treasurer. I was being a joke in the interview. Unexpectedly, I got called up to join the maincom, while the rest did not. Why? They were looking for someone who isn't aiming for power.
Okay enough of me. You have also achieved great things! You entered the JC you wanted, you got into shooting (if you didn't get in you won't even have the chance of joining the EXCO!), and many other things I might not even know!
Thus, like I said, you were not rejected, you just have not found somewhere you truely belong. Perhaps they were looking for someone very "Rah-rah", and you yourself know whether you are. You have potential. I am confident to say that. I'm glad you've decided not to cry over it. It's not wrong to cry though, don't get me wrong. Sometimes it's better to cry it out. When it's time to stop, it's time to stop.
There are many uncovered opportunities for you out there to discover. Keep walking down the path and find your light. Remember, your family and friends will always be there for you. You're not walking alone!!
Love you much Jessica. (:
Ganbatte!
雀です。
Sunday, July 18, 2010 8:13 PM
Uwaaaaaaaah.
Have been wanting to blog but was so lazy to. ;x Oops.
Hmm, last week my parents went overseas, leaving me and my bro alone at home for 5 days! It was an awesome experience. My bro and I were like kids let loose. LOL. First day we went to buy Monopoly Deal and play like mad le. We gamed for practically the whole day!! Only did work for like 1hr?! HAHAHA. But it was a Sunday kay so nehmind. :P
We had whatever meals we wanted. KFC, subway, Sushi Tei (WHICH SUCKED). XD But poor Yuki had to stay at home for the whole day while we're at school and most of the time we reach home around evening time. So when we're home she'll go crazy and want us to play with her. Poor girl. ):
As much as it was awesome, I felt the loneliness. Suddenly the whole house was so quiet... No more TV noises since my bro and I don't really watch TV... No more nagging... etc. Thus, I HAVE DECIDED! If I EVER get married in the future, KIDS ARE A MUST! LOLOLOL. If not, I WANT 3 DOGS!! CHOOSE. HAHAHA. I'll die of boredom and loneliness if there's only 2 people in the house lor. :\
Okay. Now for my birthday blog!
I loved it.
Really.
(:
The first person who wished me on my actual day was actually the president of CSC (my CCA)!! Coolios. I felt so acknowledged. Hahaha. Basically the first few people who wished me were all from my CCA LOL. Prolly cos they had an early surprise "birthday party" for me and Keith (whose birthday is on 17th July) on Monday. I didn't even expect it la. Sheesh. I feel so stupid now. LOL.
On Thursday, it was birthday dinner with the clique! :D It was a combined with my birthday and Jol's birthday since we weren't free on her actual day. They had a surprise birthday cake for me too! AND I DIDN'T EXPECT IT AGAIN! Wth right, it's like they went toilet for SOOOOO long and yet I didn't expect anything. =33=...
Anyway, we were sooooo full!! Our main meal was filling enough and the cake was a brownie cake plus there were only 4 of us and we had to finish it so... FATS GALORE!! LOL. I think it's the most filling meal I've ever had.
On my actual day, Gail gave me a present and Jol gave me a card! So sweet right??? :D I feel guilty now cos I didn't give Jol anything for her birthday other than a kiss on her cheek. LOL I'M NOT LESBIAN, MIND YOU!! We played a prank on Gail!! We took out the present from the box and put a magazine inside. Then when we met up, I opened the present up and was like "GAIL WHAT'S THIS?!" LOL. She really thought she put a magazine inside!! Cos she actually REALLY did when she was wrapping the box. She thought she forgot to take it out! She was like apologising like no tmr while me and Shu Feng were laughing non-stop. XDXD Gail is so cute. Hahaha. We told her the truth after that and she was like wth. :P My class sang me a birthday song too! I love K01!! :D:D
Had family dinner at night with nai at Sizzler. (: Nai was damn cute. She took like one piece of the stuff she wanted. LOL. It was a buffet style summore! HAHAHA. I love my nai. :D My bro promised to buy me a Jap bag and my parents want to sponsor me for a polaroid. :D:D Awesome shit! :P
Yesterday, Ros came to deliver me my present. It was a simple black note book and she decorated it with decoden stuff. I loved the simplicity of it!! It's like totally my style. :P Oh and Gail's present was a victorian-style miniature swing thingy. It looks damn hime-ish!! My loved ones know my so much. ^_^
So that marks the end of my birthday celebration. Nothing too elaborate. I like it this way. (: When everything is so simple and sweet. Thanks everyone for making this day so memorable!! Arigatou-gozaimasu!! :D
Otanjoubi omedetou, Suzume. (:
雀です。