Wednesday, November 24, 2010 11:08 PM
An awesome friend of mine is leaving for aus... Maybe even 2 awesome friends.
I got the news while I was in school today. Tears were like coming and going, but I never cried. I held them back. For the whole day I kept thinking how it will never EVER be the same again... and like what my awesome friend said in her blog, it's too soon, too sudden.
When I got home, the information really sank in and I started crying. I couldn't stop. We haven't even been together for a year and they are leaving already. It's not enough. I'm not satisfied. This is not what I want!
...But I guess, life does not go the way you want it to.
I don't know what to write... I'm just taken back by the whole news. I mean... We were supposed to be in this journey together... I really can't imagine life without my awesome friends. Although it has been merely 7 months of knowing each other, I feel like we've been friends for at least 5 years. We have already forged a bond... I'm so afraid that the bond might disappear once they leave. It's a test of friendship, a test of how much we mean to each other.
I checked how much budget airline tickets are to perth... they were about $300 for a 2 way flight, which SUCKS. What about accomodation and food and shopping? Omg. I really wanna visit them during our hols but... I'm too bloody broke. ):
To the both of you:
I will miss you guys sooooo much. Our fact sharing sessions, our sun-shine-in, our birthday parties, our gay family role play and everything about the both of you. With you guys gone, I guess we will always feel empty... But don't worry, I'm sure with our determination and faith, we will all end up together again, hopefully 2 years later. So remember, study very very hard!! Have determination!! Pay attention during lessons and do all your homework! Whenever you're homesick or just, well, MISS US, remember we'll always be on MSN to talk to! Remember to try going to facebook just to catch up! But studies more important! Facebook 2nd. :D
Despite the fact that I really don't want things to change, for you guys to leave, I honestly support you guys from the bottom of my heart. I'm sure we will meet again. So go ahead and never turn back. I can't bare to see both of you seperated as well so I really hope you two can go together. Have fun there, study hard together and see you guys in 2 years. (:
For now, let's just doubly cherish the times we have as an 'official' clique. We really have to have our clique outing with just the 4 of us. We haven't have that yet! Hahaha. :D
Jiayous and I love you both. * hearts *
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Sunday, November 14, 2010 2:20 AM
I'm craving to blog for soooooooooooo long now.
I've signed myself up for my jap class! :D I'm kinda proud of myself cos I used my own hard-earned money and found my own way to Bunka! LOL. You may think it's not sth to be proud about but I don't do that often kay! Esp since it's a total of $300 out of my $470 pay! Well, it's an obligation, since I WANT to learn jap.
I read sth like this on my classmate's blog, "When you give up something for love, it becomes an
obligation, not a
sacrifice." Nicely said. (: It does not apply only to relationships, but also to your passion. In my case, learning jap. :D
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Infatuations.What are your thoughts about infatuations? I'm sure I've talked about this before... Well, I have to admit, I'm afraid of being in relationships cos I don't want it to be just an infatuation. It'll hurt sooo bad. :\ I see people jump into relationships and jump right out feeling to torn and shattered. Sigh.
At times, I still miss having someone there I can talk to 24/7. Someone more special than a friend.--------------------------------------
School.
I'm having my first quizzes next week. I skipped AFA just to catch up on my sleep and study. It's the end of Saturday and I've yet to start studying. But it's good that I've caught up on my sleep. I desperately needed that sleep. Without it, I can't even study.
My lectures have been meaningless so far. I can't understand anything. ): I'm afraid, oh yes I am. I better get to work soon (meaning tomorrow).
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I just wanna say, if you really have a passion for something, it won't die so easily. Thus, I don't accept excuses such as "my passion just died". You simply don't call that a passion. It's just like an infatuation for something. It comes and go.--------------------------------------
Dance!
I haven't been dancing for too long now. Perhaps I should call every fri/sat night dance night. ;) This way, I can get on to learning my dances I've been procastinating on. :DD
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怎能这世界 每个人都爱别人 不爱自己?
I like this sentence. It's from Love! by Hebe I think. Learn to love yourself before you start thinking how to love someone else. (:
Oyasumi.
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