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Tuesday, August 31, 2010 1:56 PM

Being able to like you is all I want. (:

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Wednesday, August 25, 2010 6:45 PM

I'm feeling guilty.

Well, I wanted to be part of the "World Kindness Day Inter-tertiary Challenge 2010" by SKM. I was so excited because I thought something big could be done to help the animals. That was my initial thought.

However, when we got down to serious business, I thought that helping animals would be the hardest. There were lots of limitations. Like muslims, allergies, etc. Thus, it was the first thing we brushed aside. We then continued with our project planning...

In the end our project was mainly made up of creating awareness. There was a bit of action here and there, like appreciating and encouraging people to be kind. But our main focus was on awareness. I mean like you can't force people to do kind things right?

Today, I was on facebook and read the comments from people about the dog being smashed onto the ground numerous times till it died. A lot of them said that such incidents happen because of lack of education and awareness. At this point, guilt was the only thing I felt.

Even if not much action can be done to help these animals in Singapore directly, awareness and education can be done. Even simple things like posters? Videos? Educational talks in schools? Cruelty happens from lack of respect from people to animals. I'm sure what a lot of animal lovers want from the public is not action to help animals directly, but just basic respect to them. Even if you don't like them, leave them alone. If you leave them alone, they won't bother you. Even if it becomes a nuisance to you, get to the root of the problem (e.g. population of pigeons increase from feeding of pigeons, stop the person that's feeding them) instead of killing the pigeons off.

Sigh... I say I'm an animal lover, yet the first thing I brushed aside was the animal sector. What was I thinking? Seriously, I need to do some reflecting here.

A pity I got "enlightened" too late. Everything's kinda settled already. I just hope there's another chance to make a difference.

Gomenasai.

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Sunday, August 22, 2010 12:56 AM

Finally, Natsu Matsuri came! :D

I did my own hair and make up for the first time! Wasn't exactly what I wanted it to be like but I'll give myself a break since I'm a first-timer. HAHA.

I honestly regret not taking more pictures of the event and uh... myself. LOL. Hey, for memory sake! My first hardwork leh! LOL. Ah wells, at least there are some. (: Facebook saves the day! Hehehe.

I attempted to wear my yukata at home. But I can't seem to wear it neatly. I don't want the japanese people looking at me weird if I go in an untidy yukata. It isn't very respectful either. Thus, I decided to go there and ask them to help me out. Hehe. They are so nice!! They don't charge you for it, PLUS they talk to you in a gentle voice, trying to know more about you while they put ur yukata on for you, etc. If a Singaporean did it she would've been pissed from the no. of people and from the fact that there is no pay from it. HAHA.

Anyway the lady made my yukata look super neat and tidy! Loved it! Arigatou-gozaimasu~ (: Met up with Fiona and bought meji ice cream! $2 but it was kinda nice. :D Went to find Ye Yang after that and stoned at the grass area. I got sick of stoning so I pang seh-ed them and went to find ZR. Then... met up with JP and then with equu with her friends.

I made a new friend! XD I forgot how to spell his name though. Hahaha oops. He's an english and bio teacher in a West Spring. Awesome?! Hahaha. He's nice. He keep fanning me for free. LOL. Seriously, EVERYWHERE we go, he fans while he sweats. LOL. Okay now I feel bad. ;x

Took some pictures (not on my camera though) and went down to the grass area again. Wanted to look for equu's friend I think, but can't find him, I think? LOL. I was feeling quite lost when we went down. Hahaha. XD

The Bon Oburi (sp?) started soon after! :D Probably the best part of the whole event. ^_^ Super awesome. A lot of people joined in for the dance and I love this kind of warm feeling of everyone doing something tgt. (: Ye yang and Fiona didn't join though. Ye yang was having some tummyache. Lol. ;x

Danced till my legs ached, back ached plus blisters on my big toes. ): But it was all worth it! For the fun! :D Hehehe. Equu had to leave halfway through the dance though. ): Sobs, didn't spend much time with her to catch up. Glad she is happy with her new goal. :D Jiayous equu!! ZR joined his other friends after the dance. The rest of us went to search for food hehehe. :D

Almost all the stalls were closed so I just bought an apple juice with VINEGAR. Strong but bearable. (: Oh and we saw Tesun and the rest too! :D Rei and Red were crossdressing. Like whoa, very interesting. Hahahha. XD Pictures on facebook~ :P

Sat down, chat for awhile, ate a hotdog (thanks red! Or whoever that paid for it. ;x) and headed home. The rest went to catch up at some other place I guess. A pity I couldn't join them. I thought I would be hanging out with Fiona and Ye Yang for the whole event so I didn't plan for any chilling out session after the event. Gomen! :s

Overall, it was fun! But it would've been more fun if I didn't stone so much. LOL. I REALLY REGRET NOT TAKING A PICTURE OF MY YUKATA AND MY OBI!! I didn't even take a nice look at it!! ): I was too engrossed with the surroundings I forgot about myself. Omg. Zzz. Nvm, always tell myself, THERE'S ALWAYS ANOTHER CHANCE! Provided I don't die before that or my parents stop allowing me to go for events or Natsu Matsuri stops or I'm not free or whatever stupid reasons. (:

Natsu Matsuri - SUCCESS! :D

雀です。

Sunday, August 15, 2010 11:33 PM

I've been irritated a lot lately.

I had some troubles with TPJCG but I'm just too lazy to blog about it. Will talk about something else.

* Bitch mode turned on *

She is sooooooooooooooo fake. Before I start, I'll give her a little benefit of the doubt cos I don't exactly know her that well. All I could say is that she's very attention seeking and obviously she have achieved her goal cos now everyone is putting their attention on her fake actions.

Want to open an animal shelter? Love animals? Do you even know the sacrifices of opening an animal shelter? It would mean devoting the rest of your life to the shelter. Cos there would no longer be any public holidays, sundays, girl's night out for you. Everyday would be spent in the shelter. Say good buy to shopping for nice pretty clothes cos all your money would be spent on the shelter.

A true animal lover do not have to announce to the whole world that you are. Naturally people would know you are and you don't have to personally label yourself as one. Seriously, we get it kay? You love animals. You're so noble. You probably even deserve the nobel prize! We get it so stop using your noisy loud hailer to announce to the whole freakin' world!

* Bitch mode off *

Ah... that was good. On a different note, I get to sleep as long as I want tomorrow!! :D I've been waking up at like 8am for the past 3 mornings and it sucks cos it's supposed to be the weekends where you sleep the whole day!! Hahaha.

Natsu Matsuri in 6 days! I haven't got my hair accessory. Oh gosh.

Let's just hope it's not too disappointing. (:

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Monday, August 09, 2010 10:52 PM

I promise this would be the last weird post. (:

I thought through the night... Perhaps... I don't exactly "like" you after all. Yes, I look forward to conversations with you, I enjoy talking to you, etc.

However, I can't seem to feel my heart pumping with excitement, or immense sadness. It's just happy and sad. That's all to it. They say true love comes after infatuation. I'm not even feeling infatuation now.

I guess you're right, friendship is the best. At least there's only happy and sad. I won't feel my heart tangling up or being torn up. It's great this way. :D

Still, I would like to thank you once again for giving me a hint of how it feels to like someone. Arigatou ne~

Just be friends. (:

雀です。

Sunday, August 08, 2010 1:50 PM

Kami-sama, please do not let anything awkward happen. Please let things continue the way it is and not backfire.

Onegaishimasu.

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Saturday, August 07, 2010 10:01 PM

~~Sorry for the double post. Haha.~~

I just wanted to say a bit more.

I enjoy your company... a lot. I like your smses and the funny things you say.

You're just the best. (:

I'm so paranoid because I care so much. I guess.

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9:21 PM

You don't have to like me back. You may regard me as a friend, and have no special meanings behind your words... But all I want is to like you. (:

Behind the shadows, behind your back, observing you as you peek back once in awhile. Thank you for not judging me... Even after I said so many weird things about myself. Haha.

You may be afraid... But I want to be there to support you, to get you out of your fear. I want to be standing beside you, cheering you on. I may not be the one you choose after you overcome your fear, but the times I spend with you is more than enough.

Everytime I see a new conversation popping up from you, a smile is drawn on my face instantly. I'm slowly knowing you more and I'm glad you're willing to tell me more about you without me asking. I feel so honoured, even though you might have done the same to many others.

Just talking to you makes me happy. :D

Ano ne... I think I really do like you.

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Friday, August 06, 2010 5:12 PM

Double H today. Holidays and Hormones.

Let's start with the holidays, shall we? My holidays just started. Actually... it's not exactly a holiday since the exams are right after that. Nevertheless, not going to school = holidays. Haha. Last day of school was a mix of feelings though. During HAP lec, we got back out quizzes and stuff. I was really super depressed cos I scored real bad for a quiz and I got a 0 for one prac quiz cos I forgot to take it. Awesome? Yeah.

I calculated and in order to get an A, I have to score 87/100 for my HAP exams. I can't say it's not possible, but it's definitely very hard to get. In other words, my holidays will be spent studying and studying and more studying.

Because this is my ~~dream~~goal.

I don't like calling it my "dream"... cos dreams are never real. So from now onwards, I'll call it my goal... My goal of being a Vet. (:

Now for hormones.

Basically, my hormones are raging. LOL. I had this ~~weird~~super nice dream about me having a boyfriend. It was really sweet and I was enjoying the feeling. When I woke up, I thought of how nice it would be to have a boyfriend. Well, I also thought of the negative things it'll bring as well. HAHA.

I never thought you listened. I thought I was just a background girl. I enjoy talking to you. I... I look forward to seeing you starting a conversation on MSN. I look forward to you.

Finally, someone else other than HIM is making me look forward. Perhaps I like you? Perhaps. But I dare not say I love you. After all, I barely know you. Because I barely know you, I want to know you more. Who you are and who I am looking forward to.

Although you may break my heart in the future, I would like to say "thank you"... for making me revive the feeling of liking someone again. It has been so so so long.

Okay that was weird.

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