Tuesday, September 29, 2009 9:40 PM
Today is a day of SHOCK.
First half of school was getting back chem paper.
I'm so so so so utterly disappointed.
Paper 1 - 26/40
Paper 2 - 41/80
Overall - 56% [C5]
Whatthehell. I got a fucking C5. -.-'' Mrs. Poon is so gonna kill me. If 'O' levels are of this standard I might as well jump off the building now. Hahas. Okay I admit I didn't study as hard as I should... But I thought I would at least be able to scrap a B4 or something. Getting a C is a slap in the face.
I better buck up for chem or I'll seriously be dead. I wanna get a freaking A1 for 'O' levels!! I NEED it to be exact. ._.
Next half of school was English. During recess I was totally freaking out cos I heard that people FAILED english. I had a HUGE feeling that it was me judging from my command in English. I was so afraid... afraid that Mrs. Tian might put another "Disappointed" at the top of my paper. :\
Anyway, here are my results:
Paper 1 part 1 - 19/30 [Kinda expected. Nevertheless, I'm happy I didn't fail.]
Paper 1 part 2 - 21/30 [Ohmygod? A freaking A2? LOLOL. I was flippin' out!]
Comprehension - 11/25 [I fell into a state of what people call 'emoing'.]
Summary - 19/25 [Thank god!]
Oral - Not revealed
Overall - 65% [B3]
I didn't fail!!! :D I got a B3! LOLOL. I think I got around B3 for oral cos otherwise I would've gotten B4 overall. ^_^ Yay!! But I seriously need to practise my comprehension for crying out loud. I shall do a bit of comprehension everyday from now on! :D
After school I went to the study room again. Started to do some bio MCQ but I feel asleep. -.- After finishing 40qns I went on with amath paper 1. I got so SIAN-ed out cos I was almost circling every question. I'm so screwed for amath. :( Someone have study session with me so that I can ask you questions please! ;x So anyway I was so sian that I decided to just go home. Hurrhurr.
When I reached home yuuki asked me to cos Rin with her. She's doing Len! :D Here are the versions I'm gonna cos with her in the future:
http://piapro.jp/content/xufsx4eyyx9byhi3 [Photoshoot somewhere before CNY]
http://piapro.jp/content/pxnhp4txljz3xmeb#content_movie [Photoshoot Valentine's Day 2009. Btw, when's Valentine's Day? ;x]
http://i192.photobucket.com/albums/z230/felicialiew/eb252ee2f6007048a67febe47273666d.jpg
http://i192.photobucket.com/albums/z230/felicialiew/3245484045_70f58e7ca3.jpg
Sorry I'm just too lazy to put up the pictures here... So please click on the links! ^^''
I still wanna do Message of Regret though. (: Somehow, I'll get it done hahas. I'm gonna make my life so interesting after 'O's! :D
Cosplay. Cosplay. Kosupure. Kosupure.
雀です。
12:04 AM
Ohmygod I'm crazy over this vid!!
Watch the vid given in the description first for a better understanding. (:
When I watched it I totally cried like mad! :'( And and anyone wanna do the vid together with me? As in like act the whole thing out like the vid. :D Len would have 2 versions (the past and the present) and Rin would have 3 (Princess, 'beach wear' lol and present). I take the role of Rin. ^_^ If someone is willing to dedicate their time and of cos $$$, do tell me kay! It'll be my ultimate cosplay goal!! Sankyuu~
If I can be born again, it'll be nice if we can be twins again.
雀です。
Monday, September 28, 2009 5:11 PM
我的玻璃心被甩在地上。
碎片都撒在地上。
我一个一个地把碎片捡起来。
怎么了？
啊，一滴一滴的血沾在我碎掉的心。
我看着我沾满血的手。
好痛。
可是我不哭。我不能哭。
沾满血的心。。。血一滴一滴地掉下来。
我的心哭了。但我不哭。
哭、会改变现实吗？
哭、会带来快乐吗？
不会。不会。不会。
我不哭。
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I think that's the most emo thing i've ever written in my blog. Wow. Hahas. I just thought of it while the teacher was going through my emath prelim paper. Sorry, was bored. XD
I'm kinda shocked and disappointed with my emath results.
Paper 1 - 58/80 [With 12marks worth of careless mistakes]
Paper 2 - 79/100 [With 11marks worth of careless mistakes]
Overall - 76/100 [A1]
My first (and probably only) A1 I got so far. I'm shocked that I got A1 but I'm disappointed with the fact that I could have done better if not for the careless mistakes. Seems like I still have room for improvement. Gotta practice more.
Well, I passed HCL... Which IS a miracle cos i TOTALLY didn't understand the passages for my compre hahas. Wonder how i scraped through the paper.
Gong han - 12/20 [Bleh.]
Bao zhang bao dao - 48/70 [My god. 68% but I thought i'll FAIL.]
Paper 2 - 55.5/110 [LOL]
Overall - 58/100 [C5]
I passed my paper 2 by half a mark! HOHO. XDXD I hope I can pass for O levels. Although it won't make a difference to my marks OR my future if I do get into poly. x.x...
After school I went to study room and did 1 summary and 1 emath paper 2. (: I have to revise my elit later. Have to stick to my study plan!! :D
Tomorrow I'm getting back chem and eng. I bet I'm gonna be disappointed in chem (I'm aiming for an A2 at least) and I'm gonna cry for eng if I see Mrs. Tian and my disgusting results. Rawr... I really dun wanna let her down but my english is totally cmi... :\ Zen me ban?
Wooooow. I'm so chinese today hurrhurr. Okay shall play viwawa and get back to studies. (:
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我的心好痛。
那是改变不了的现实。
算了。
睡个觉吧。
醒了，就什么事都没发生过一样。
晚安。
雀です。
Saturday, September 26, 2009 1:13 AM
Yeah I'm childish and I love to rant. But that's who I am. Live with it.
It hurts. I always hear how it hurts to be the last to know a secret. Whatever secret it is. But I never really got to experience it. Just when I thought we were all closer. I guess not. Or maybe it's because I've been appearing offline too much? I dunno. My heart hurts... I wanna cry again. But should I, really? What's the point? I dunno... But I still want to... cry.
Maa... Forget it. From now on, my plans are my plans. I shall not elaborate.
For an update, I'm doing well on my Nadeshiko Fujisaki cosplay. :D
-White socks [bought]
-Inner blouse [found]
-Boots [found]
The blouse and boots are a friggin $54.40! It's cheap! Considering shipping + handling fees are added in already and hello, BOOTS. $.$...
I'm planning to sew my own blazer... It's hard to find an actual one or one that I can modify. They either use the wrong material I'm looking for or have pockets or have rounded ends if you know what I mean. Lol...
Okay I don't feel like talking anymore. I shall go sleep. Btw, this is one of my reasons why I'm appearing offline.
Himitsu ga daikirai.
雀です。
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 12:11 AM
Long weekends are nice. (:
Warning: Fairly long post ahead.
Friday:
Had my egeog prelims in the morning. Ended at like 9.30am I think. Mummy didn't have to go to office so we went together to have breakfast. Had my Fuck (Duck - Inner joke) rice!! :D But I ordered too many extra stuffs and had milo to add on so in the end I almost exploded. T.T... Wanted to be a guai kia and head to the study room to mug for amath paper 2 but I ended up feeling all lazy cos the day before I was drained out from egeog. Mummy wanted to get her hair done and pa needed to "secretly" bake mummy's birthday cake at home so while mummy was at Jean Yip having her hair done I went to plaza sing to shop for stuffs I need on Sunday.
I bought TOOOOO many things from Daiso. Bought a hell lot of nail stuffs and a pair of magnet ear rings plus a $2 hime hair bumper! Ohmygod such a good buy I love it but I dunno how to use it. -.- Whatever, at least I saved $13 and it's off my want-to-buy list! :D Suzume loves Daiso. Bought eyelash curlers and ribbons too! Hurrhurr. When I was done I walked around spotlight but there wasn't really anything I really needed so I headed back to J8.
Mummy wasn't done yet so I called pa to come over. We shopped for mummy's present (;x!) and got a Doraemon mug. (: It's really cute and you can even put your snacks on the cover! ^_^ Bought it at More than words. :D Met up with mummy after that to have our late lunch. Then mummy and I went to get some other stuffs we needed and went home after that cos we were so tired. :s I'm gonna die in HongKong if I tire so easily from shopping.
After resting for awhile we had to bring my bro for his tuition so while waiting for him me and mummy got a pair of heels each! Yay! My first pair of heels (excluding boots, etc)! ^^~ Had supper at macs and headed home for the day!
Saturday:
Beloved mummy's birthday! Pa presented her the birthday cake he baked by himself to mummy! :D Should have taken a picture when he did... they were so sweet~ (:
Anyway, I had tuition in the morning. x( It was raining so I was late and the cars jammed up the pick-up bay so I had to take an umbrella to get into the shopping complex. In the end I forgot to bring the umbrella home. I wonder who took it lol. -_-''
Went to nai's house to baibai to my great-grandfather whom I never met. Burned money for him and chatted awhile at nai's house before heading home. Played around with nails and make up with mummy which I TOTALLY fail. I can't use my eyeliner properly. :( It always become too thick and I'll look like a freak. x.x As for nails, I tried putting on fake nails. In the end the glue was so strong I thought I was never ever gonna be able to take them out. The nails were destroyed by yours truely cos I practically PEELED them off. ^^''
Had dinner at ahma's house to celebrate my mum's birthday. Ohyeah, I had black pepper crab at nai's house and steamed crab at ahma's house! :D Double love! Whee!! Ate pa's cake at ahma's house. Not bad for a second try. Just that it's kinda dry. :x We brought Yuki over to play with Charlie but as usual Yuki was being a bitch and totally rejected Charlie all over again and went to eat garbage. -.- She had to be tied up cos she was being so naughty. She didn't exactly mind anyway. She just went to have a beauty sleep. Went home at around 10+pm. Gave mummy her mug before midnight. XD Hurrhurr.
Sunday:
Woke up at 10+am. Did my fingernails but failed so I removed everything and got so pissed with nails. ;x Had lunch at the kopitiam near Red's house and was 45mins late for our make up + hair + nails session. Ahaha~ Gomen! :s
It was fun at Red's house!! :D Changed into my dress and Red started on my make up. Lol when she told me to curl my lashes I was like O_O?... I actually tried curling them the day before while playing with make up but I totally failed again. Whatthehell. I'm so useless when it comes to these stuffs. T_T! In the end Red helped me curl my lashes. Heheh... She had to do almost everything for me. ;x Paiseh paiseh.
She did my hair after that. Curl curl curl yayy!! First time having my hair curled. :D Actually first time having PROPER make up as well! Red is love, she made my first times so wonderful! Ate the Merci chocs I gave her and I had some weird flavour eck~ Then I tried the almond nut I think. Nice nice. (: Did a bit of nails before continueing with hair and I watched vocaloid. It was quite confusing at first but in the end I understood most of it. :D I don't mind cosplaying as the evil princess... Not sure. Have too many plans now. :s
When Red was done she led me to the mirror with my eyes closed and when I opened my eyes, I was like "OMFG WHO IS THAT". I was totally shocked lol. XD Like wow... For the first time, I'm proud of my looks LOL. See how good Red is? The hair was like wooweee too! Kyaaa~~ Red-sama, arigatou!!
Both of us played with nails after that hahas. Rhinestones are pretty~ Just that they love jumping about and falling onto the floor. x.x... Managed to finish a little later cos of nails. But it wasn't very late anyway. Reached the place early haha.
The ROM was okay. The area was on planks so there were holes which heels can be trapped so I was like watching my every step. In the end I survived the day! :D Lolol. Almost everyone who saw me were like "Waaa~ What happened to you today? So pretty ah?" Then I was like "Ahahaa~" ^^'' All the way. Took some pics before the ceremony~
Lovin' the bow Red made. :D Thanks!! After the ceremony was dinner. Dinner was okay too. I almost ate sand though. -.- One bad point about holding it at Sentosa. Then came the most interesting part of the night. Teasing time!! Hahas. XD The couple was asked to dance some pole dancing lolol. Everyone made fun of them! It was damn hilarious. ^_^
At the end of the day we planned to have a mahjong session at nai's house. But I was taking too long to zilian at home that by the time I was ready to change the kakis called and said they wanted to go home le. T.T Gomen~!!
Okay I don't zilian often so... enjoy the work of Red. ;)
Suzume Heart Red! <333 .
Fun is fun.
雀です。
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 8:08 PM
Wow, it has been a year! It's Kakashi's birthday again! :D This would be my 2nd time I'm wishing him a happy birthday. (: I read my previous post one year ago and got reminded that I actually called him lao gong last time and it has been a year since I took my chem SPA. o.O...
Hahas I remember because of something I decided to stop calling him lao gong. But I can't rmb and I'm too lazy to go and check why. XD Maa, anyway...
お誕生日おめでとう、ｶｶｼ! <3 .
You are like forever 29. o.o'' But it's okay, 13 more years till I'm the same age as you LOL. :P Again, I would have to keep the post short as I have Bio prelims tomorrow and i'm already more than half dead. I know you'll understand. (: Love you always. Aishiteru yo!
Kissu~
雀です。
Thursday, September 03, 2009 9:38 PM
Once again, the hand of fate slaps me in my face.
My uncle's leg would have to be amputated till above knee to save his life.
He was recovering so well... and just because he walked a tad too much, he over strained his muscles, underwent numerous operations and finally today, is going for an amputation. He wanted to go back overseas to return back to work so eagerly. Yet, it ended up even worst.
Although we are not very close as he is always overseas, I can't help but to feel sad.
This incident harshly reminds me that I have to cherish what I have. My legs to walk, my arms to carry, my eyes to see, my ears to hear, my mouth to speak, my nose to smell. Every single bit of myself. My soul included. I'm happy that I'm alive. I'm able to experience joy, pain, anger, sadness. The fun is experiencing all these feelings. If you feel happy all the time, at some point you'll get bored of it.
Thus, I don't care if any part of my body has flaws. Whether I look ugly, whether I'm fat, I love myself.
As quoted from my HCL paper today: 不能爱自己的人是最可悲的。
It's not the exact words but the meaning is there.
So people, love yourself.
Love.
雀です。
Wednesday, September 02, 2009 10:41 PM
Here's my lullaby ^_^:
Hurrhurr.
雀です。
Tuesday, September 01, 2009 11:56 PM
天荣 (^_^)/ assignmentsss says:
busy is one thing ba, but still it doesnt really interest me much lol
-Suzuki Suzume 鈴木・雀- [Rocky Ang; 060102 - 220608] Carve the pain of my life into my soul. says:
lolol cant help it then.
天荣 (^_^)/ assignmentsss says:
haha ya
-Suzuki Suzume 鈴木・雀- [Rocky Ang; 060102 - 220608] Carve the pain of my life into my soul. says:
u prefer hentai anime right
天荣 (^_^)/ assignmentsss says:
i watched my drama instead jus now lol
o.o
no loh
-Suzuki Suzume 鈴木・雀- [Rocky Ang; 060102 - 220608] Carve the pain of my life into my soul. says:
hurrhurr
u dun like it when u see another guy better than u right
hurrhurrhurr.
天荣 (^_^)/ assignmentsss says:
i rather watch real human if i have to resort to those thing lol
eh?
-Suzuki Suzume 鈴木・雀- [Rocky Ang; 060102 - 220608] Carve the pain of my life into my soul. says:
u cant stand a perfect guy like sebastian right
天荣 (^_^)/ assignmentsss says:
hentai are jus anime lol
-Suzuki Suzume 鈴木・雀- [Rocky Ang; 060102 - 220608] Carve the pain of my life into my soul. says:
hurrhurrhurrhurr
天荣 (^_^)/ assignmentsss says:
lol
ya, right lol
-Suzuki Suzume 鈴木・雀- [Rocky Ang; 060102 - 220608] Carve the pain of my life into my soul. says:
ah. u finally admitted.
i'm so gonna save this.
As said.
雀です。
12:16 AM
As I reflect on the numerous animes I've watched, I realised they all have one thing common: protecting something important to you.
Naruto: bond between them and Sasuke.
Bleach: protecting friends.
Kuroshitsuji: sebby protecting ciel.
Clannad: protecting loved ones.
K-ON: dreams?
The list goes on.
I think what's important to me is my dreams. Of course, family members and friends are important too. Yume... They shape my life. My dreams to become a vet, my cosplay dreams. Even stupid dreams like fantasizing about anime characters also play a part. Maa...
I'll protect my dreams. How? I won't give up. I won't lose. I won't tolerate failure. I'll protect my dreams and reach them one day. No matter what, zettai ni.
Anyway, enough of weird talk. Today, due to overdose of fangirling, I actually thought of a manga story. Yes, it's about shitsujis. Lol. XD Don't blame me, it's all that has been on my mind these few days. Hurrhurr. Sadly I can't draw. I like the story though. Hehe. If you wanna know the rough outline, just msn me. I'll only tell you if you're trustworthy. It's part of my dream you know. So I'll protect it, I won't let bad people rip it off me. =P
夢。
雀です。