Saturday, April 21, 2012 2:57 AM
Was just trying my luck, never expected you to agree so easily considering the commitments you have.
I was guessing you would eventually back out, but I was hoping this time would be different. I chose you because I believed in your abilities, because I knew that there was no one else like you. I wanted to make this OUR project, and not MY project with assistants...
I guess I failed badly... Again. I know nuts about leading, I know nuts about guiding people, I know nuts about letting people have a sense of belonging in the project. Even for Hands to Paws, although it was a 3 person project, but I know that the other 2 never really felt great ownership over the project. Cos I don't know how to make them take initiative, I don't know how to make them feel control over the project... I'm just a failure.
Talking about Hands to Paws, it's an animal project that
we I was under planning for sooo long... When you couldn't organise it with me, it was boss that told me. I rmb suppressing my feelings, telling him I didn't mind... I'll just organise it myself.
Like I said, I thought things would be different this time. Perhaps somehow you can make this project one of your priorities, something that you really would like to do. But I guess I failed again... I'm unable to make you want to plan this project... I'm a failure.
I'm hoping you don't read this, but if you do, I'm not blaming you, really. I'm just disappointed in myself. Today at Macs, I was so happy you were there, able to provide your valuable inputs to the project. I guess I just don't have this luck to have you around.
I guess... I'm on my own now.
雀です。